like there's No ToMoRrOw...

older && wiser...but not really.

2008-04-16T03:39:38Z

so now i go to the University of Chicago. fun comes here to die. i come here to bitch. and learn occasional things.

i read my whole livejournal today, and cracked ^ at so0o0o0 much! especially at how much ive changed...who would have thought i'd end up at one of the best schools in the world??? too bad i have to work very very hard most of the time, and i cant party as much as all my friends. GOD its hard here! whatevs...itll all pay off in the end when im making big bucks as a BAMF attorney. thank god for the bitch brigade...without them, not only fun would come here to die. I would too.

1. honestly, wat color underwear r u wearing right now?
peanuts comic strips!!! pretty awesome, huh?

2.) Honestly, whats on your mind?
peer pressure is a serious problem in today's society.

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
procrastinating and being absurd. and coerced.

5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
at this school, it's really hard not to.

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
if you count cussing ppl out for no reason, then yes. if not, then...probably.

7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?
well. we actually dont have fucking cable. or any channels for that matter. but normally...YES! *HSM <3*

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
nobody in particular. just ppl at state schools sometimes...

9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?
AN ACTUALLY GOOD PARTY AT THIS SCHOOL!!!

10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
yepp, but only when im thinking/stressed

11. Honestly, are you a bitch/asshole?
WELL! according to my RH's...yes!!! ((and they are actually right))

12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
definitely. an overeating disorder.

13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
of course, im away at college. so everybody from home, my parentals, muffinman, and my DEAD GOLDFISH!!!
*RIP rumplescaleskin 2006-2008*

14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
dont we all?

15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like?
in the words of dane cook, there's always a friend nobody likes. we call them the D.U.F.F.

17. Honestly, are you loyal?
surprisingly, yes

18. Honestly, are you in denial?
maybe, but if im in denial would i kno it?

19. Honestly, who would you rather be right now?
somebody that has graduated law school && already is a BAMF attorney

20. Honestly, do you like someone?
uhh...i like lots of people! yay for friends <3

21. Honestly, does anyone like you?
duhhhhhh

22. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them?
yes, in circles.

*Anger Section*

1. What do you do when you're mad?
i swear alot, then my eyes begin to water, and then i swear more.

2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
its what i almost did...i had 4 wrestlers holding me back. also, probably just made somebody feel horrible about themselves...wish i knew who!!!!!!!!!

3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
if they dont cry, i didnt do a good job of getting back now did i?

4. Do you swear when you're mad?
like a bitch

*CRYING SECTION*

1. When was the last time you really cried your heart out?
not recent enough

2. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
not lately

3.Do you still cry when you get an injury?
noooo, im a big girl now!

4. Do certain songs make you cry?
only if im PMSing

5. What usually makes you cry?
this fucking school

*Happy Section*

1. Are you normally a happy person?
hmm. at home, definitely. at uchicago...it depends on the week.

2. What can make you happy?
food! i guess other things too...

*Self-Esteem Section*

1. Do you believe in yourself?
i have to...why the fuck else would i be here???

2. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you deny that you are?
it depends on the person

3. Are you one of those people that think they are ugly, dumb, and gross?
no. the university of chicago has that effect on people...after living here for a few months, you will NEVER question your level of attractiveness again. because there is always, a l w a y s somebody much more unattractive than you could ever imagine becoming.

wrong schedule

2006-06-19T23:21:48Z

so i feel like an idiot because i just went into work at 5...just to realize that the schedule i had was wrong! so i looked really stupid since i drove there for nothing...and now im pretty much bored out of my mind so i decided to fill this out. its been awhile...i pretty much only update during the summer. besides this lil survey, heres an update::
- i struggled through my junior year and ended up with a 4.2 overall, so im pretty happy about that
- i dont know where im going to go to college..im trying to decide between u of i or loyola, but of course there's always more choices that appeal...ahh it sucks
- im going to die my senior year. cause of death :: 4 AP classes
- i've been with eddie acosta for about 4 and a half months now, and i couldn't be happier. i love you edwin <3
- i really really really really miss kristen amanda pulice...
- my friends are awesome. this summer is turning out amazing! jarz, steph, lisa, nan, idk where id be without u guys.
- my license is going to be suspended in one month & one day if i dont get a new car. goodbye, shaggin wagon =(
- i still work at best buy. idk if thats good or bad haha
- this summer, i really want to see wicked & a motion city soundtrack concert! and learn to drive a stick shift.

ok, now for the survey.

1. honestly, wat color underwear r u wearing right now?
black

2.) Honestly, whats on your mind?
i need to get more tan...and not red

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
listening to MCS, fillin this out, eatin pop tarts, and petting my doggie with my feet

5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
i like myself from the neck down. sad, but true...

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
mhmmm...twice!

7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?
hellll yeah!! high school musical baby!!

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
probably, just cant think of anyone right now

9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?
being with my baby <3

10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
yepp, but only when im thinking/stressed

11. Honestly, are you a bitch/asshole?
fo sho...only when i wanna be

12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
ehh kinda, but now its more of an overeating disorder!

13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
yes, but he's at work

14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
dont we all?

15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like?
in the words of dane cook, there's always a friend nobody likes

17. Honestly, are you loyal?
surprisingly, yes

18. Honestly, are you in denial?
maybe, but if im in denial would i kno it?

19. Honestly, who would you rather be right now?
zac efron's gf

20. Honestly, do you like someone?
yes i do

21. Honestly, does anyone like you?
he better

22. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them?
i really think it is

*Anger Section*

1. What do you do when you're mad?
my eyes begin to water, and i swear like crazy

2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
said to a complete stranger, "u kno, ur really fat!"

3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
ooooo yeah

4. Do you swear when you're mad?
like a bitch

*CRYING SECTION*

1. When was the last time you really cried your heart out?
not too long ago to be quite honest

2. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
quite often actually

3.Do you still cry when you get an injury?
i havent been injured in awhile *knock on wood* but i think it depends on how bad

4. Do certain songs make you cry?
i never thought they would, but yes!

5. What usually makes you cry?
when ppl hurt my feelings

*Happy Section*

1. Are you normally a happy person?
it depends on the circumstances...right now, yes

2. What can make you happy?
lots of things

*Self-Esteem Section*

1. Do you believe in yourself?
i really dont know...ive never let myself down..so maybe?

2. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you deny that you are?
every time

3. Are you one of those people that think they are ugly, dumb, and gross?
pretty much

shit son

2005-10-03T04:27:05Z

wow id say its time for an updat e wouldnt you? ive been so freakin busy lately its not even funny. im just gonna do a brief run over of current events lol-

so i work at best buy...and i do like it there, especially the people, but i am there wayy too much. this past weekend alone i put in i think something around 15/16 hours...they called me in early today. and yesterday i was by myself while we were busy, so it was really hard. also i always get the asshole customers somehow, and yesterday i cried for the first time at work. thank god i waited until he left tho..that guy was the biggest jerk ever. but its ok..when i get my paycheck i wont be complaining =)
so i freaking HATE skool...its not even funny how much i dont do my hw anymore. i just dont care enough to get it done..i hate not having a lunch cuz im kinda losing weight now, but ill get it back..its only a matter of time. honors physics is the worst class ive ever been in in my entire life..and my teachers this year arent the greatest. hopefully ill survive..
homecoming is friday. im not really ready...dont kno how im doing my hair, gotta get my nails done, find jewelry/shawl/purse..yeah. im going with joe cat..yesterady we spent 3 hours at the mall looking for something to match me cuz he had bought a freakin purple shirt...me and his mom freaked. but in the end we got him a tie somewhat matchign my dress..adn he's wearing a white shirt. powderpuff is wednesday, thatll be fun, but i was sick the first practice so im behind =( and i STILL gotta get my shirt decorated!
i had the best time of my entire life exactly one week ago at the IMSA homecoming..the night was just crazy ((very salvage)) adn i met the most awesome ppl. too bad 2 of them have mono now..i was lucky all i got was a fever or something..lisa every time we get together, we pull off the most amazing shit ever. i love you babe <3

thats really all i can think about right now besides the hw that im not doing..o and i was listening to some cat stevens song and i got really sad about missing ppl..so i just want to mention the ppl that i miss these days: kristen, travis, larry, christina, d-rock, alayna, lisa, loveland, grams, david, bradley...i kno i havent talked to some of them in like months..but still..=(

Rest In Peace Mrs. Keller -9/30/05

im cool!!!

2005-08-28T20:12:26Z

conversation of how cool i am between me and ricardo:

boricua198914 (3:01:11 PM): hahaha u so crazy
SporTiegirlBK22 (3:01:52 PM): im the coolest of the cool
SporTiegirlBK22 (3:02:04 PM): i have a license but i cant drive, im getting a crap ass green van...im awesome
SporTiegirlBK22 (3:02:17 PM): o and im staying home to do hw and watch the vmas
SporTiegirlBK22 (3:02:27 PM): yepp...im freakin amazing
boricua198914 (3:02:38 PM): ur crazy awesome i wish i could be as kool as u
boricua198914 (3:03:22 PM): how did u get so cool
SporTiegirlBK22 (3:03:48 PM): it was hard lemme tell u...i doubt ull ever be like me
boricua198914 (3:04:02 PM): man maybe in my dreams only
SporTiegirlBK22 (3:04:43 PM): i doubt u can dream my level of coolness budd
boricua198914 (3:06:12 PM): damn but i can try really hard

hahahaha....so anywayz ms. addison was yesterday...congrats michelle! ive finally been to my first community days..my new schedule at skool is ok, considering i get out after 6th period..but even tho i leave early, it still feels like im there for a whole day! i dont really like how i barely see anybody outside of my classes...and i get so much freaking homework...on the plus side i got the job at best buy! ill be starting training soon ((assuming i pass the drug test, which i should))..so make sure u come visit me! thats it for now...back to the h o m e w o r k...

u got me fcukers

2005-08-21T18:39:50Z

all i can say is holy crap. i had absolutely no idea anything was going to happen...my plan was to come home, shower, ice my head and do all the rest of my summer work. so much for that haha! now that i look back, things are making sense...like why i had to clean the whole freakin house the day before, why nicki didnt wanna go eat after picking up nan, why ricardo's "mom" called him 1457 times at the drive-in...yeah i pretty much feel like an idiot now. o well! the night before was very fun...my first time ever at the drive-in! saw red eye and wedding crashers (again), and spent the night at nickis. we finally got our asses up at like 2:30, and then we went to get nan around 2:45...and i wasnt dressed nice or anything at all...and i walk in carrying all my shit and all of a sudden all these lights go off and ppl yell "SURPRISE!!!" i actually got kinda scared and started crying a bit...but i was really mad! i looked freaking disgusting, and everybody was at my house! i remember wanting to run away at first haha but then i made my way around and gave everybody a hug..i was surprised that even kristen and her family was there! apparantly itd been planned for quite awhile..i was so confused cuz i thought my friends had already thrown me a party..but i guess that was just with the girls. of course like every time we all get together there was some drama...but im not mad or anything i just want it to be over with so the summer ends on a good note. anywayz after the party i showered and went out with dan and brendo..we went to jeremys and from there me ricardo jeremy dan and brendo all went to applebees. i kno it looked bad cuz i was with 4 guys but w/e..then i went to dunkin donuts with brenden and dan...then fran picked me up adn drove me to dappers to meet up with the girls and we all went to courtneys for a bit before ally drove me home...so yeah it was definitely a superfun night! and tonight should be freakin awesome too cuz were all leaving summer with a bang ...seems like a party at my house with an afterparty-party at jarz's! I GOT A JOB INTERVIEW AT BEST BUY!!! wish me luck =)

THANK YOU EVERYBODY FOR KEEPING FROM ME AN AMAZING SURPRISE PARTY!!! thank you daddy, mom, grandma, trevor & friends who helped set up, kristen (& family), nicki and nan (for occupying me), ally, erin, schrammy, talia, angela, katie p, christina, krystle, chris, (wow chris krys n chris!) shaunzee (who won best gift cuz i secretly love roasts) joey lel, jason, ricardo, brenden, dan, jeremy..and to all the ppl who called just to explain why they couldnt come even tho i didnt ask for an explanation haha..if i forgot somebody lemme kno <3

special thank you to francesca for putting up with my mother for a whole month and helping to get the whole thing together...i love you franny granny!!!

pics later...

pray for mamanina

2005-08-18T16:05:58Z

so i made a pretty big decision today...and i did it in about a timespan of one minute. i rushed through registration at like 8 in the morning and went to volleyball for pictures at about 8:45. went downstairs, got the uniform, and went upstairs to change...i realized i had 7 missed calls from my mom. so i call her back, and my grandmother is freaking out at home and my mom wanted to take her back to the hospital. she has bronchitis/pneumonia right now, and she coughed so hard she ruptured her eardrum and was bleeding out of her ear. my mom was wondering if she should come and get me? well i had been thinking of quitting for a long time...its just not fun anymore. there are so many reasons to quit...and i thought of all of them for like 20 seconds and i was like u kno wat i think im going to quit right now...so i talked to coach A and told her id been thinking of quitting for awhile and she was like well then wats the point of taking the pictures now if ur going to quit later? and i was like ur right i wasnt going to buy them anywayz...so in about 2 minutes i just quit the volleyball team. i thought id be like sad or something but im really not..im actually more happy now! my mom was ecstatic that id be able to help her calm her mother down...she was freaking out cuz she couldnt hear anybody..shouting italian nonstop, screaming and crying till she finally lost her voice..shes actually doing ok now and shell be going home soon. im really happy with my decision now...its going to make my life tons better.

ive thought about all the reasons i wanted to quit, and they all add up pretty big...

- ill have lots more time for the 3 honors and 2 ap classes im taking..as well as the junior project and all the pressure of the worst year of high skool..this'll make things SO much easier

- i can finally get a job and get PAID for working after skool..maybe even drop my LSC so i get out after 6th period and work more. money = car + clothes + freedom =)

- ((this is a big one)) my health...i had surgery 3 weeks ago, & just bc i got 2 tumors taken out doesnt mean im good now. since ive had them before, they're more likely to come back..i have to take very good care of my body, and frankly volleyball was too much for me. it actually really pained my whole left side every time i moved my arm quickly...the doctor advised me to take it easy this year...and now i am!

- i probably wouldnt have been playing all that much anywayz...im the most out of shape and i havent been performing well at all, and i kno she noticed cuz she kept asking me if i was ok and needed to sit down and all that..and the truth is i did! haha but im an idiot so i didnt.

- its just not fun anymore...when u have to drag urself out of bed every morning dreading to put on the spandex and sports bra, thats not really signs of doing something u enjoy.

true im going to miss my friends on the team..but its not like were going to stop hanging out! half the girls arent in vball their in orchesis or something..so im not really worried about that. i am pissed tho b/c once again everybody has the same period lunch and i have a different one! which brings me to my schedule...its most possibly the worst schedule ever printed in high skool.

1st- PE 11 Leaders -Fudacz

2nd- AP American History -Donaldson

3rd- AP English -Meggenberg

4th- Italian 12 Honors -Vitiritti-Lynch

5th- Honors Pre-Calculus -Stach Wilen

6th- Honors Physics -Ailes

7th- Lunch

8th- LSC -Chapetta

i start my day getting all nice and sweaty for gym, then kill my brain with 5 honors classes in a row, by then my stomach eats itself and then i do nothing with my ex-bball coach who hates me b/c he thinx i have a bad attitude. now, before i couldnt leave cuz i had practice after skool, but now i dont! so if i drop the lsc i can leave after 6th, which would be freaking awesome as hell. i guess we'll see...one week till skool starts!! =( its going to be soooo bad without the class of 05...u guys were the best ever! good luck in college everybody! i love you christina! i miss u larry! u 2 mike! make sure u guys keep in touch, and lemme kno whenever ur back in town...christina we still have to go to lunch with alyson and lisa before u go..im free now so call me!!

im alive =)

2005-07-28T23:55:11Z

well now i finally have time and strength to write about my surgery. as most of u kno, i had 2 tumors in my left..um..chest. i had to get them both removed...so i got up at 4, took a shower and brought a change of clothes (i just went in my pjs). i got there and i brought this stuffed dog cuz i was so ScAreD! but i only waited for like 3 minutes in the waiting room, then i went in to my lil cubicle and changed into the gown and sat there for awhile while random nurses and aids came in and asked me the same questions over and over. then this one lady came and said im the lady whos gonna give u the iv and i freaked. i burst into tears cuz my one true fear is needles...but i went through with it even tho it was freakin t e r r i b l e! i remember looking at the tube in my arm connected to the bag and i just started bawling all over again, so these nurses came and said were gonna sedate u now so u calm down and we'll give u the heavier one a bit later...thats all i remember. that was the end for me...next thing i kno i wake up and im yelling i dont wanna go to driscoll!! then i was calling for my dog over and over again...morphine does crazy things to u hehe. i remember my dream involved the my chemical romance helena video..and i was dead in the coffin! lots of ppl i knew were there and my mom was crying and gerard was singing and black umbrellas were swinging...it was kinda weird! but yeah when i woke up i was freeeeezing and they kept piling more and more heated blankets...when i finally left the guy wheeling my chair was actually cute! it was so embarassing..but he was nice and he even let me keep the footies and the blanket! then we went to osco to pick up the prescription of vicadin (i think) and i kept getting lost in the aisles when my mom let go of me...it wasnt good. then we went to dappers where i barely ate a fruit plate..stopped at blockbusters to buy a few videos since i dont have a dvd player in my room..then we got home, i took my medicine, and automatically threw up. that was prety much my night...trying to eat and hold donw the medicine. every time i take it i get all groggy and just really out of it...as those of u who've visited already kno haha. thank you to everybody that has visited ((joe cat, ricardo, brendo, jeremy, garrin, haris, ARMIN, joey, dan, dina, katie p, davies, lalo, frer, joe h, frers cuz, julio, franny, al, and mich))...im pretty bored sitting around the house so if u want..or u just wanna laff at my granny appearance and how out of it i am...come visit!! =)

happy bday to me!!!

2005-07-25T22:40:34Z

wow ive been slackin with this thing, but here's a big update...im finally 16!!! technically i can go get my license whenever i want now, but i cant because of my eye ulcer thingy and my upcoming surgery...anywayz my bday was on the 22nd and i spent it mostly with my family...had a $500 shopping spree at the mall and i got a diamond cross necklace from my mommy, and a digital camera from my daddy! then the next day i went to my gram's house and out to lunch with them, and the waiter was soooo cute! i was an hour late goin to jarz's house, so when i got there and everyone was actin all weird i thougth they were mad at me...but it was actually a suRpRisE ParTy!!! thank you sooo much everybody..u guys are the best!! and thank you larry for givin me another ride home... i <3 my friends =) sunday i hung out with ally for a bit, then went swimming at the friars cove pool with katie...tryin to get all the partyin in that i can b/c tomorrow morning is my s u r g e r y =( im soooo nervous its not even funny, b/c my one true fear is needles and i kno theres no choice for me, i have to get them...im probably going to freak. tonight i gotta take some shit and be in bed by 9 to get up at the freakin crack of dawn to be at the hospital by 5...if all goes well i should be back home by around 2 or 3 since its an outpatient surgery, so make sure you all give me a call to cheer me up!!! keep me in your prayers tonight...

u can barely tell this is a regular plate!! this was made with custard, chocolate and strawberry syrup, whipped cream, and that piece of cake in the middle by that cute italiano waiter!!! =)

^^^the surprise ^^^

nice caroline hehe =)

i think that was nan...thanx alot babe!!!

the lovebirds haha jk =)

paaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarty!!!

THANK YOU GUYS!!! i <333 you all!!!

HELL YEAH BABY!!!

2005-07-20T06:06:38Z

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some things are SO worth getting grounded...

2005-07-18T04:14:11Z

the past few days were soooo much fun, but i cant say all we did or else we'll get in trouble *wink wink kristen*...all im going to put up to remember this night is this picture!!!

paper- $.50

basil leaves- $4.00

tape- $1.00

lighter- 1 burnt thumb

creating a fake joint to give your already paranoid mother something to actually spaz about- P R I C E L E S S!!!

there are some things money can't buy...for everything else theres a BEST FRIEND!!!! i <3 u kristen

gottaluvusher22 @ 2005-07-17T22:56:00

2005-07-18T04:06:01Z

wat am i???

-Goth--
Do you wear black eyeliner?: yes
Do you own any black clothing?: yes
Do you think about death often?: nope
Do you want to die? nope
Are you a social outcast?: no way
Are you pale?: nooo
Do you like Hot Topic?: omg no
Total YES: 2

--Skater Punk--
Can you skateboard?: not at all
do you wear Vans?: i used to..but no
Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?: all the time
do you get in trouble?: yeah! ((kristen haha))
Do you listen to the bands: yes
Do you have any piercings?: yepp 6
Total YES: 4

--Prep--
do you say the word "like": o yeah
Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch?: heck yes!
Are the A&F models hot?: HELL yeah!
Rock music is bad, right?: no way
Do you want to be in a sorority/fraternity? idk yet
Into jocks/popular guys/girls? of course
Are/were you a cheerleader? im saying no
Total YES: 4

--Hippie--
Is your hair long?: yeah
Are you a vegetarian?: nope
Do you own a tye dye shirt?: noo
Do you want peace?: yeah
Do you want to save the animals: YES!!!
What do you think about war?: idk really
total YES- 3

--Gangsta--
Are you from the ghetto?: no
Do you own "bling bling"?: o yeah
What do you think about do-rags? : nooooo
How about hip-hop?: yes its good
Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?: no not at all
What do you think about afros?: not my fav
Have you ever said 'fo shizzle'?: yeah hehe
Total YES: 3

--Emo--
How often do you cry?: today actually ...
Do you have an ex?: yea
Do you have an acoustic guitar?: no
Are you emotional?: pretty much
Do you like soft music?: yes
Do people understand you?: noooo ((haha travis))
Do u write ur own songs?: no its too hard
Is your hair dyed dark?: no its natural
Do you cut?: never
Total YES: 4

--Jock--
Do you play any sports?: yes
How important are they to you?: SUPER
Do you pick on the geeky kids?: sometimes...
What do you think about football?: its cool
were you considered a bully by anyone?: yeah =(
Total YES: 5

--Geek--
Do you wear glasses?:yea cuz i cant wear my freakin contacts
Do you get good grades?: yepp
Are you smart?: yepp
Do you use an inhaler?: no
Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets: ew shirt pockets
Does your mom buy your clothes?: ew no
How often are you on the computer?: every other day
Do you ever get picked on?: yeah!
Total YES: 4

JOCK WINS!!! then comes skaterpunk/prep/emo/geek....wat a mix!! im sooo one of a kind hehe

I HATE DOCTORS!!!

2005-07-14T19:16:54Z

i am royallllllllllly pissed. i just got back from the eye doctor b/c my eye wasn't getting better as i was taking that damn claritin...in fact it was getting worse! my right eye is completely red on the white part, and my left eye is becoming red. but of course freakin dr. pomeranz told me it was allergies, so i believed him. thank god my mom didnt becuz she made me go to the eye doctor just in time. i dont have stupid allergies, i have a fucking bacterial eye infection that is literally eating a hole in my right eye, and beginning in my left one! the doctor freaked out when she saw my eye, she couldnt believe i had waited so long to come in..she said it was one of the worst eyes she's seen all year! there is going to be scar tissue too...im in critical condition and i cant wear my contacts for at least a week or two, if im lucky. im just hoping it cant get any worse...i have to put eyedrops in both eyes every hour for 24 horus, then every 2 hours for 2 days, then every 4 hours until i get better...and at night i have to put a fucking OINTMENT in my right eye before i go to sleep...its like a damn paste!! argggggggh! i cant play basketball, and idk how the fuck im going to be able to d r i v e...and remember that my birthday is next week and my surgery for my tumors is 4 days after!! i want to killllllllll my regular doctor >=(

somebody. shoot. me. =( ....happy fucking birthday, huh? hahahaha

gottaluvusher22 @ 2005-07-13T17:51:00

2005-07-13T22:52:52Z

this is freaking hilarious...try it!!!

Are you one of the 3 P`s? (Poser, Punk, Prep)
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my world-famous poetry

2005-07-12T05:56:51Z

i kno i kno, another update so soon...within minutes of each other...but i couldn't resist. my best friend in the whole wide world has encouraged me to post my poem that i wrote for her on here...and i think im going to do it. i really wanna see what ppl think, so please comment below ((u don't have to be a livejournal user to comment)) ...if you dont like it, u can say so but p l e a s e be nice b/c if ur too harsh ill cry..hehe here it goes..I <333 YOU KRISTEN!!!

Sixteen Years

Acquaintances some try to keep

Certain friendships, simply cheap

Other rivers run very deep

In those waters I wish to tread.

There is a place within my mind

Not many are let in to find

Many friends I’m able to b l i n d

But she sees in my head.

True emotions are always read.

My path of life involves a maze

The correct route buried, deep in haze

When hitting dead ends on certain days

She helps me remain stead.

Many phone calls, full of tears

Behind me while confronting fears

Always there for sixteen years

To help me push ahead.

Supplying band-aids when I have bled.

As precious as a porcelain vase

Brightens my mood with a simple embrace

Never failing to put upon my face

A smile widely spread.

She is my crutch to hold me up

If I’m the drink, then she’s the cup

The eyeliner in my bag of makeup

The butter to my bread.

The pillow on my bed.

When things around me take a dive

And I feel a bit like I won’t survive

All I have to do is speed dial “five”

And she makes me happy instead.

Never have we truly had a fight

(Minus that one Camp Awana night)

We never will tire of one another’s sight

Through the upcoming years ahead.

You’re stuck with me even when we’re dead. =)

Locked pinkies while sleeping on my bedroom floor

Laughing at nothing till’ our stomachs are sore

These things will continue forever more

Even when we both are wed.

Not even college can bring us apart

Each other’s pictures are tattooed on our heart

We’ll always push each other in that cart

If there’s a tough road ahead.

We’ll face it together instead.

Our girls will grow up the exact same way

Together they’ll make our hair turn gray

Have each other to lean on every day

Wipe away every tear that is shed.

One day when we’re both old and fat

Sittin’ in rocking chairs for a nice long chat

Smiling with dentures, we’ll both know that

Some feelings don’t have to be said.

Bonds like ours

Don’t need words

To be read.

you learn something new every day

2005-07-12T05:28:37Z

things i've learned:::

.....im not going to marry usher =(
i would experiment any pill in the world if it meant cancelling my surgery
parents actually have gone through major shit in the past
myspace is addicting
one pile of roadkill can seriously ruin my good mood
im tired of dealing with b u l l s h i t
im daddy's little girl =)
i would eat a n y t h i n g to live with kristen
never try to open cardboard boxes in the shower
being a player is hard work *hahahaha*
i have to start searching for colleges soon
graduating scares the hell out of me
i dont kno what the hell i would do at my moms without my dog muffin
disney movies are the best
christina aguilera and kristen will always be two of my favorite singers
i. want. a. freaking. car.
never schedule surgery 4 days after somebody's birthday
"sweet 16" is an oxymoron
you can't eat a half of a whole pie in one night and not regret it in the morning
dont mix new dark blue jeans with light blue shirts in the laundry
if insanity was popularity, my mother would be on every magazine cover worldwide
the pulices are my anti-drug hehe
tumors suck ass, even if they're banine (or however u spell it)
music is amazing...
if you start to have an allergic reaction to anything, take out your contacts
i love to read books *i kno i kno, im a nerd*
being broke is terrible
i really need a job badly, but cant apply until the 22nd
working during the skool year is impossible b/c of all the honors classes and sports
parents bring u into the world, but friends get u through it =)

LeT's all do the TiMe WarP aGaiN!!!

2005-07-11T05:18:39Z

havent really updated in quite awhile, so im not gonna do the whole day-by-day thing...went to kristens for the 4th, got hit by a freaking firework in the ankle. we went to the hospital to visit uncle jimmy..hes dying from cancer =( its soo sad... at least i got to see travis since i ahdnt seen him in like a freakin year. KRISTEN im so pissed at u b/c ur not only going to be outta town for my birthday, but also for my surgery!!! DAMN u! got the summer reading books for skool and tons of other books for myself, including the da vinci code finally...saw dina after about a billion years!! rocky horror picture show is awesome hehe =) went to christina's graduation party yesterday which was pretty fun...its so sad to see her go! i kno ill see her around tho...maybe even visit her at depaul! =) skools not going to be the same without u christina...and ur class b/c u guys really were the best!!! went to starbux that night with ally lisa and michelle, went back to ally's where we watched the diary of a mad black woman. it was reeeally good! drove to chi-town this morning to visit my grandma, went to this crazy polish restaurant with so much food it was ridiculous, then home where i ate again with liz at wendys! *i really want a fruit cup!!!* we watched dirty dancing: havana nights and d i e d b/c javier is SO amazingly adorable!! but ill settle for patrick swayze...hehe =)

another thing: they finally set a real date for my surgery. july 26. 4 days after my birthday...damn tumors!

the following is most possibly the coolest thing anybody will ever see...an example of how ridiculously crazy kristen and i are! too bad u had to leave trav!! dont be jealous of how freaking awesome we are! kristen's the one with the finger *dr. evil*, mine has the h u g e lips and the crooked face cuz kristen cant draw, and mariah's is just all around hilarious. her face is also the best b/c the most talented person in the world drew it hehe

my phone is pretty damn cool, and kristen is pretty damn stupid...

put it together and u get this picture =)

some pictures from christina's party, the one of us actually got really messed up so ill post a special one for her after she sends me the good one from her digital camera. krystle u thought i didnt get u, but s u r p r i s e!!! krystle and christina g are such badasses *thanx for the new background guys*..and krystle's eye is so mysterious! me and marisa were basically pulling on our curls alllll evening hehe...curly hair forever! (even tho most of the time i curse it hehe)

too tired for a real update

2005-07-07T20:26:43Z

Have you ever...
01. Fallen for your best friend? no
02. Made out with JUST a friend? nah
03. Been rejected? kinda
04. Been in love? not really
05. Been in lust? OMG yes
06. Used someone? no
07. Been used? maybe
08. Cheated on someone? not really
09. Been cheated on? pretty much
10. Been kissed? yepp
11. Done something you regret? of course

Who was the last person...
12. You touched? muffin
13. You talked to? kristen
14. You hugged? kristen
15. You instant messaged? larry
16. Kissed? kristen
17. You had sex with? --
18. You yelled at? trevor
19. You laughed with? kristen
20. You had a crush on? larry =)
21. Broke your heart? --

Do You...
22. Color your hair? it pretty much grew out
23. Have tattoos? not yet, i want a butterfly on my ankle
24. Piercings? yeah 6
25. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? nope
26. Floss daily? not daily
27. Own a webcam? no
28. Ever get off the damn computer? yeah
29. Sprechen sie deutsche? idk what that means
30. Habla espanol? no, parlo l'italiano

General Questions
40. Considered a life of crime? of course
41. Considered being a hooker? who hasn't?
42. Considered being a pimp? not really
43. Are you psycho? nah
44. Split personalities? according to my mom...but no
45. Schizophrenic? no
46. Obsessive? no
47. Obsessive compulsive? when it comes to cash or pantylines, yes
48. Panic? noo
49. Anxiety? nah
50. Depressed? i was once
51. Suicidal? no
52. Obsessed with Hate? no
53. Dream of mutilated bodies? thats fcukin sick
55. If you could be anywhere, where would you be? con mia famiglia in Italia
56. What would you be doing? partying...drinking..eating =)
58. What are you listening to? my new fall out boy cd
59. Can you do anything freakish with your body? double jointed thumbs..o and my knees pop constantly
60. Chicken or fish? i dont really like either, but id have to say chicken
61. Do you have a favorite animal, no matter how lame it may be? monkeys

Currently:
62. Current Clothes: bra, panties, and a robe
63. Current Mood: bored
64. Current Taste: iced tea
65. Current Hair: straight!!!
66. Current Annoyance: the damn cd player!
67. Current Smell: fRuiT!
68. Current thing I ought to be doing: readin that autobiography for ap english
69. Current Desktop Picture: USHER!!!
70. Current Favorite band: fall out boy, my chemical romance, or S. of a D. ...can't decide
71. Current Book: dancing in my nuddy-pants
72. Current DVD In Player: joseph and the amazing technicolor dreamcoat hehe
73. Current Refreshment: iced tea
74. Current Worry: not having a ride to bball
75. Current Favorite Word: whore

Favorites:
76. Food: bbq ribs, baby!!!
77. Drink: dr. pepper
78. Color: baby blue
79. Shoes: flip flops
80. Candy: everything!
81. Animal: doggie...preferably a bichon
82. Movie: ...joseph and the amazing technicolor dreamcoat
84. Vegetable: carrots and celery with ranch dip (raw only!)

Future:
85. What do you want to be when you get older? criminal attorney
86: Married?: eventually
87: Kids?: o yeah..but not too soon
88: Living Where?: first a chicago penthouse with kristen, then a big white house somewhere

This or That:
89: Gay or straight? straight
90: Boxers or Briefs: boxers
91: Reading or Writing: both actually
92: Basketball or Baseball: softball
93: Walking or Running?: walking
94: Left or Right? right
95: TV Shows or Movies: movies
96: Rap or Rock?: anything besides country
97: Day or Night?: Night
98: Chocolate or Vanilla?: strawberry, then vanilla

its official, im a nerd

2005-07-04T04:41:31Z

the past two days havent really been all that event filled...got up early to work out with lisa on saturday, back to her house, got ridiculously weird tanlines falling asleep (drooling hehe) outside, went to the park for a bit with lisa, ricardo, and phil where we played maN oN rOcKs hehe...went to olive garden with my mom and bro. later that night joe came over and we watched friday night lights for my first time...i was so pissed at the end. also, i looked like a super nerd cuz ive been fighting my allergies. and they've been winning. i can't wear my contacts anymore =( ..O i did see my beautiful cuzin twice in one day, after not seeing her since skool ended =) once at starbux (for the first time it wasnt steve!) and on her motorcycle with her dad...wat a badass hehe. today i chose to chill with my grandma, we went out for chinese and i did yard work. shes still recovering from surgery, and my surgery is coming up...this would be the only time id get to really see her. aren't i super cool?

a random quiz

2005-07-02T08:11:53Z

You're a sporty tom boy. That's not a bad thing.
You're friendly, competitive, athletic, and you
love to have fun. You attract a lot of guy
friends and make many girls jealous. Don't pay
attention to them. A lot of boys might think
you are aggressive and might be intimidated.
Don't worry, show them the other side of you
that makes people so attracted to your fun
personality. You also are a profectionist. You
have to be good at everything. But please don't
stress yourself out. You're just fine the way
you are.

What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
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krazzzy nite!

2005-07-02T05:51:12Z

last nite i spent the night at talias, which was fun as usual...as for tonight, well, some nights are better left unanalyzed! i will say this tho...getting LosT in such an industrial, dark area was SUPER scary, and i didnt really completely trust the driver...and being the "entertainment" for the night wasnt really that funny from my perspective, since everybody was laffin AT me! im aware that canoeing is in WATER!!! hopefully if we all hang out agn, somebody else can be the "entertainer."

chicago rendezvous

2005-06-29T07:26:12Z

wow was today a freaking blast...i still can't get over it. tho it was a long day, and an early morning..it was well worth everything. today i went to downtown chi-town with lisa to help her "work" at her lab at northwestern, and we roAmeD the CiTy alllll day!!! *CHICAGO?!!?!?* i wasn't too pleased that she made me wear a black dress at first, but by the end of the day it wasn't all that bad hehe. we started off by walking to starbux with class hahaha, and sat once again and had a very intellectual conversation. =) gotta lov it...then we walk around and go to the museum of contemperary arts which actually turned out to be pretty damn neat! sat in the park for awhile...out to eat at this HUGE food place called waterfront (i think) which was very high class, but we fit in! encountered a bitch in the line, but dealt with it with s t y l e hehehe...walked around expensive clothing stores, faked wanting to switch to T-mobile cuz the guy was cute..but a lil slow in the head! *cool..is that a country? HAHAHEHEHAHA* then we left the mall, stopped in at church *omg they're honking at US! have they NO respect for the Lord?!* and ended up in more ridiculously expensive stores and met someone from good ol' A-ToWn makin it bigg in the city! he worked at gucci and was really cool..an aspiring rockstar from the band Fallen! back to northwestern, when i realize ive lost my regular clothes...they were still in the stall on the 9th floor thank GOD! changed back, chilled in the library for a bit, and got home saFe n sOuNd. went to taco bell and dq with my dad and told him all about my day....almost everything ;)

yea i still can't believe i had a dress on...but look how awesome the city is =)

hehe what can i say? i couldn't help myself...it does bring out the sunburn lees!

can you believe that flower from the farmer's market was only $1?

smiling today can only helpbring brightness tomorrow =)

awww...my gorgeous partner in crime!!! i <333 u lisa!!!

churchified!!!

2005-06-27T22:09:21Z

nothing super special happened the past few days besides talia's grad partay...behind the wheel sucked friday! i turned the wipers on, hit the gas while the car was in park, nearly backed into a stop sign...it was bad. the best part of that day was larry drove me home...thanx again! i got sick that nite so i couldnt go out. went to the mall with my mom thursday, got frustrated that i couldnt fit in any pants/shorts/capris again! my mommy dearest announced to the whole damn store "well now we kno were those full slabs are goin! ur gettin some junk in ur trunk hunny!!!" i couldve decked her. saturday my bro won his championship baseball game, then i went to talia's party and spent the nite. it was cool chillin wit my fam (minus christina =( she had a wedding), and frankie's friends talked about how "fine" his family is, wit allyson, christina, me n talia hahaha ...we had fun that nite goin to dappers at 2 am (i didnt kno it was open 24/7!) and it was fun "churchifying" her the next morning! sunday i went to ihop with my dad, and got sick again. then *LISA SHAH* stopped over, and her and my dad forced me to go running with her. soRRy for slowin u down so much, babe! we went to starbux yet agn, and steve was working yet agn, and i tried that mint chocolate chip frap b/c the sign was SO awesome hehe. our conversation was soooo intense and intellectual and just higher level based thinking! i love feeling so intelligent...since it doesnt happen often. todays behind the wheel went really well, but its so frickin hott out it sucked that i walked home. plus im s o r e from the run =( damn knees...check out the half sunburn/half tan thing i got goin on! and try to ignore the so-called "junk in the trunk"...biotch.

gottaluvusher22 @ 2005-06-23T15:12:00

2005-06-23T20:14:18Z

dedicated to 3 ppl: kristen, usher, and *u know who you are* hahahaha!!!

"Boom Boom Boom Boom"

If you're alone and you need a friend
Someone to make you forget your problems
Just come along baby
Take my hand
I'll be your lover tonight

This is what I wanna do
Let's have some fun
What I want is me and you

Boom boom boom boom
I want you in my room
Let's spend the night together
From now until forever
Boom boom boom boom
I wanna go boom boom
Let's spend the night together
Together in my room

Everybody get on down
The Vengaboys are back in town

This is what I wanna do
Let's have some fun
What I want is me and you

Boom boom boom boom
I want you in my room
Let's spend the night together
From now until forever
Boom boom boom boom
I wanna go boom boom
Let's spend the night together
Together in my room

Boom boom boom boom
I want you in my room
Let's spend the night together
From now until forever
Boom boom boom boom
I wanna go boom boom
Let's spend the night together
Together in my room

Boom boom boom boom
I want you in my room
Let's spend the night together
From now until forever

just close my eyes

2005-06-23T04:39:26Z

tuesday- nothin really special happened all day, except i walked in my dad's house to discover that my bathroom sink was sitting outside for the garbage..it was really nice of my father to inform me that i wasn't going to have a bathroom for the next 2 week...o well. at 9:10 i had a fenton game, so spear picked me up and we drove there...it was my first time, so naturally i only played a lil bit, but i did get one jump ball! unfortunately, i had to be thrown to the ground to get it, but o well. we get home, theres no milk, so i drive to the gas station with my dad, and come home right as a huge f i g h t erupts on my street!! two of my neighbors were yelling about soemthing property related, and swingin at each other! so i pulled on the street (our driveway is blocked by construction) and ran inside hehe

wednesday- today was pretty hectic. i wake up at 1 to discover i have behind the wheel at 2, so i shower in my dads shower (ew) and find out my mom refuses to take me, and my dad left for wisconsin for the cubs game. i started the 2 mile walk, when my dad actually came back and picked me up. i <333 him! my mom shows up to pick me up, but we begin to fight so she kicks me outta the damn car and i walk my ass 2 miles home! bitch. so then i get home, she feels bad, n she takes me to the mall where i just get more pissed! what the hell is wrong with my body! it doesn't fit anything in any store! forever 21, pac sun, abercrombie, zumiez, express, american eagle...u name it, i tried it. a plus was that i saw my cuzin allyson and her mom rosa in express...hadnt talked to them for awhile! ill be seein them soon for the family grad parties. i only bought 3 tops after shopping for 4 hours =( on top of all this, i was the one driving, so my mom was super nuts! idk y, but i we can never ever get along. ive been trying lately too, but...no. by the end of the night she yelled at me about everything you can imagine: clothes, money, my brother, her husband, food, the computer, my tv....everything! finally i was just liek omg go to bed! so she slammed her door and went to sleep. and tomorrow shes gonna get up and act like nothing happened, and its all gonna start alll over again. after awhile u just get used to it and learn how to deal with these things...

lord of dogtown

2005-06-21T05:52:45Z

so sunday i went to famous dave's with my dad, my bro, my dads friends pat and stephanie and their daughter angela, and it was crazy! EVERYBODY was there!!! first we see KRISTEN....how weird is that?! half her entire family was there too! then i see joe cat's mom, then his dad and him! it was insannne, half the town was in that place haha

of course me and kristen have to do a model pose after such an incredibly random meeting!

the freaking cutest girl in the world...turning 2 the next day!!!

today i had my first behind the wheel, and holy crap i thought i was going to seriously die. my partner had never driven a day in his life before...and i was freeeeeaking out in the back seat...but you cant really blame me, his driving was terrible. i was begging mr. serio to save my life through the mirror lol so on my way home joe asks me to go see lord of dogtown with him so i go and wow thats an awesome but strange and confusing movie...its a true story, so u cant change the sadness of it. we go back to joes, passing joey lel in his NEW CAR, and play pool and ping pong for awhile. talia comes over too, and we all sit down and have a really good dinner with his mom, then a bit more pool, then my mom picks me up and talia comes over to spend the nite. we watch texas chainsaw massacre it was my first time, and i of course freaked out. i even screamed at the top of my lungs at the very end of the movie...well i have 2 computers in the same room, so talia and i are right next to each other rihgt now talkin to ppl online. then oFF to BeD...nite!

*like there's No ToMoRrOw...*